Radhe Radhe dada yes I agree. Isn't it that if we even think we are purified or qualified then our false ego is involved? Will we ever be purified enough? I don't think so. It's only by mercy of Guru n vaishnavs we shall get this Lobha greed ....to follow raga marg
Bhakta: "There are quite a few Vaiṣṇava groups who discourage rāgānugā bhakti, līlā smaraṇam and gopī-bhāva."
Advaitadas: "Yes, I opposed such discouragement for years but disappointing experiences with both myself and others have caused me to soften my stance. I see it differently now - there is a scriptural truth and there is a practical truth about adhikāra for rāgānugā bhakti. From the purely scriptural point of view the discouragers may seem wrong but from the practical point of view they are bloody well right. It is sad but true. If, in the past few centuries, the rāgānugā doctrine was so badly abused in Bengal, which is after all a region of pious India, then what to speak of trying to introduce the rāgānugā-for-all doctrine in the lewd west? It is not an exaggeration to say that of the hundreds of westerners I have seen coming to Rādhākund in the last 30 years, aspiring to perform rāgānugā sādhana, just a handful of them are still practising anything at all now, and of those who have remained some preach disturbingly controversial things. Quite appalling. So 'practical truth' means 'yes, only lobha may be the gateway to rāgānugā bhakti, but better first become a pure devotee on the niṣṭhā or ruci level anyway, for the obvious reasons that the last 30 years have sadly shown us. 'lobha' has mostly turned out to be some fleeting sentiment or intellectual curiosity rather than something substantial. On top of it, some preach that in rāgānugā bhakti one does not follow the rules so strictly - making matters infinitely worse if your audience consists of American and European hippies. The 1-2% of sincere aspirants may ignore this sermon, of course, but they are exceptions rather than the rule."
In Bhakti Sandarbha Srila Jiva Goswami explains that there are different degrees of intimacy in the pastimes of the Lord in Madhurya Rasa.
"Do not worship or hear confidential pastimes if a devotee (man) becomes excited, or if is in the humor of father or mother or servant. But you must know that the confidentiality of these pastimes is sometimes partial and sometimes complete." (Bhakti Sandarbha - 338)
If this change occurs, you must know that you are not prepared.
But, in Priti Sandarbha Srila Jiva Goswami explains the different degrees of intimacy between a hero and a heroine:
"The four different categories of perception are: see (Sandarsana), talk (Samjalpa), touching (Samsparsa) and sexual union with (Samprayoga)." (Priti Sandarbha - 375)
Therefore, some pastimes may affect some devotees. And so you need to choose pastimes that can be heard. With a lower degree of intimacy. But we can not neglect to hear the pastimes of Lord in Madhurya Rasa, as this is the only way to purify the material lust. Chant Hare Krsna and hear the pastimes of Lord.
So, yes, JUST DO IT !!!
